"Would Jesus overindulge on garbage food while climbing out of a debt hole from buying things He couldn't afford to keep up with neighbors He couldn't impress? In so many ways I am the opposite of Jesus' lifestyle. This keeps me up at night. I can't have authentic communion with Him while mired in the trappings He begged me to avoid."
That last line pierces my soul and encourages me on. "I can't have authentic communion with Him while mired in the trappings He begged me to avoid."
Oh Jesus- that I could have authentic communion with You. That my life would reflect your simplicity and fullness in God. As I am uncomfortable, please be with me and remind me that this is a mess of my own making and that You are making me fuller through this. I know that You change me through letting go of things I don't need to make more room for You. I want so much to be like you.